I've been battling cancer for the past five months.
Throughout that time, I've been surrounded by hundreds of people who have prayed for me, served our family, and shared our burden. But I haven't really shared my story publicly.
As a result, there's a ton of ambiguity about what's actually going on with me. Some people see me around town and wonder if I'm knocking on death's door. Others assume that everything must be fine, and my cancer is a thing of the past. The truth is somewhere in between.
I'm going to use this space to tell the story of my battle with cancer. I don't know the ending yet. Hopefully we can find out together. But in the meantime, I need to share my story. Partly, I need to do this for myself. We can walk through seasons of darkness and never turn back and process what we've learned, or how we've changed. I hope to do that here. I also hope that in telling my story, I can somehow encourage others who are suffering and asking all the questions that come with it.
Here's what I know:
God is sovereign. Period. No qualifications or caveats.
God is good. Infinitely good. The standard and source for all other goodness.
If I have cancer? God is sovereign, and God is good. If I die from this? God is sovereign, and God is good. These were guiding principles in my life before I had cancer, and they've continued to be anchor points for my soul throughout this season.
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